Showing posts with label mothers. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mothers. Show all posts

Sunday, December 18, 2011

The road to....

Today I learned the road to hell is not paved with good intentions.

Good intentions are a characteristic of the heart and only Jesus Christ and God can know your heart besides yourself.

Everyday of my life is a battle against negativity, the world's influence, and the adversary. In no particular order but each in equal and constant attack on my home, my marriage, my kids and my family.

Today I was wounded.

But most days I win.

So I'll lick my wounds...say my prayers...cry my tears and draft my battle plan for the coming week.

I will never stop serving or be weary in well doing. I will endure to the end and the end is not here.

Friday, November 5, 2010

My kids have made me soft.


My kids have made me soft and I'm not talking about that extra skin that I still have from carrying them soft. I mean that balling my eyes out while watching Toy Story 3 soft. Staina, my 6 year old vampire, crawled into my lap during some really intense parts. Katie, my 9 year old, munched happily on her treats and my Boy, he's 14, well he's 14. While I the 28 year old mother cried.

I have cried for many years at movies and TV shows. I always blamed it on hormones. I mean lets face it we have plenty to choose from. We can blame it on pregnancy, ovulation, periods, pms. You name it we have a blamee for it.

No I realized it's not hormones. I'm a softee. You know this is especially hard for me. Because I used to not be this way. I was the power post basketball player, the going to jail for hitting somebody with brass knuckles rebellious teen, and then I even did a brief but knowledgeable service in the National Guard as a future MP. I am not soft!

But wait...Is soft really that bad. I am a woman. Why do woman have to be hard? Why do we have to be so guarded? Why do we have to fulfill the stigmas that society puts on us?

If crying at the movie theatre makes me soft.. Well that's OK. If I catch someone laughing at me and their adults,(I did learn from my overnight stay in jail)  I still carry my knuckles in the side pouch of my Coach bag.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

What's up with YA fantasy?


Saturday was a good day. I had a date day spending time with my husband. We did some religious activities together and then, in our Sunday best, had a nutritious meal at the local McDonald's. As we ended our morning and went our separate ways, we both had errands and obligations to attend to, I suddenly found myself at the mall. Then just as suddenly I was knee deep and happily surrounded by my addiction. The Words. What my husband rather unaffectionately calls books.

I went to the store with the intentions of finding a cooking/diet book. Nevertheless, I found myself bouncing back and forth between the historical romance section and young adult fantasy section. I decided to purchase a book in YA about werewolves. I spent $20.00 on the hardback.

I left the book store so eagerly I almost forgot my original errand in the mall. I was bustling with the potential the new "words" could provide. I went straight home and did my chores quickly and saw to any potential needs my children might come up with so as not to be interrupted and thus igniting my Medusa like attributes.

Then I sat back on my super soft, down padded bed and snuggled up to get my fix. I must admit that what first attracted me to this book was the cover. This jacket was alluring, pivotal and beautiful. So you can imagine my utter dismay as I opened the book and ran my fingers along it's inner pages. I did not feel a smooth lattice work of equal proportions. The pages look like something my six year old cut out then put together with a stapeler. They are all misshapen and roungh edged.

Nevertheless, because of the junkie I am, I press forward. I made it to chapter 3 and could tell that I wasn't really happy with the way things were going. What do you think I did? What would you do? Remember I am a junkie. I read on. At about 11:00pm I was half way through the book and had met my breaking point.

I had endured several aspects of the story that I could look past. However, when the characters were being forced into situations of sexual abuse by authority figures of the straight and homosexual nature I was officially done. Not only am I done I will get my money back.

I used to read YA because I thought it would fall better within my ideas of moral reads. That is not the case anymore. The saddest thing about the whole ordeal is that this is not the first time this has happened. It is acutally quite common. There are also several common denominaters in my experiences as well. If it's YA fantasy set in modern times then it going to have something offensive to my own personal convictions more often than not. Why is that? Do teenagers really find joy is such sad and unacceptable behavoirs? Isn't fiction supposed to be fun? I will say when I do find the not. It's like finding a hidden snickers bar days after Halloween is over. Unexpected, satisfying and oh so sweet.


PS. I have purposely left the name of the novel out of this entry. I believe what I believe. Those are my personal opinions. I refuse to review a book in any form whether negative or positive when I cannot even finish it.