Please
don’t think that is a dig or a joke about people with anorexia. It’s not. But I
know that psychologists have said that the trigger or foundation for eating
disorders is feeling a general lack of control. Meaning a person will try to exert
control over their weight. Thus creating a feeling of security leading to
obsession in the form of an eating disorder.
With
that in mind I have unprofessionally diagnosed myself with Cleanorexia. For the
past five years I’ve felt like the queen on a chess board and prosperity and
trials are the ones moving the pieces. From financial failure, to challenges
with my children, to marital issues, health and wellness occurrences, my family
and I have endured what I imagine many people have in recent months and years.
When
those times began I started cleaning, organizing, selling anything we didn’t
need, couponing, making my own laundry detergent. You name it. If I could do
whatever made me feel productive, prepared, or in control I did it.
Last
night after having several hours of an amazing and empowering networking event
I came home to my husband saying these words, “I may not have a job as of 12/1/12.”
